So I really only get on tumblr when I feel like it, which is usually once a week. Its 11:55 pm here, and i just finished "Looking for Alaska" by John Green. Now, right at this moment I feel all of these thoughts swarming through my head. What if Alaska did wait? What if Mies (Pudge) changed his mind? What if he never met them. See, what I think is the world is full of what if’s, and we need to stop what ifing our normal or abnormal lives. What at I at least don’t understand sometimes is that this choice might change your life forever, bad or good. I always think its going to be bad, and I start to push people away. I think what I have learned from this book in all honesty is that if you don’t try something, you wont learn. I am like an hard-boiled egg, I have to be peeled out of my shell to do stuff, because i’m too scared of living. This book basically told me in the nicest way I can put it, to say Fuck it, we all are going to die some way somehow.Why not just live our life with little worries and some regrets? I mean why waste your life worrying that some day you might die of cancer, why don’t you get out there and live your life! Heres the thing, I have regretted tons of things in my life, like I wanted say I love you one last time to my grandpa before he died. I used to worry that he was upset with me, rather than thankful. The truth is, he didn’t want me to see him like this, also my brothers. They ended up seeing him. I regretted over and over that i wasn’t there, but now i don’t. Wherever my grandpa is, he feels no pain. if it’s true about karma, I hope he is or will be someone very close to me.Sorry for this deep vent, but I wanted to express how much I learned from this great book. Thanks John Green for making me love your works more. I hope i meet you someday, because you are my hero when it comes to writing. If I’m down I can read one of your books and the laughter/sobs will roll in and make me feel alot better.